A New Year

I CAN'T believe that I'm saying this, but I'm starting over again. When I started this blog I wanted it to be the chronicle of my last lifestyle change. Unfortunately, that wasn't meant to be, so I'm here again. I have a few things going for me.

1. I have bought an elliptical machine that will be delivered tomorrow. My biggest problem with exercising is that I will not leave and go back to the gym once I'm home. I'm sitting this sucker in the middle of the living room floor so that I have no choice but to use it.

2. My brother-in-law and I have started a biggest loser contest starting today. 13 weeks. Wager is $100 to the winner from the other player. If I have to hand over $100 I'm going to be so mad!! It's just the motivation I need to keep on track!!

3. When we weighed in for biggest loser tonight, I only weighed 6 pounds less than my brother-in-law. He's at least 3 or 4 inches taller than me. And I see him as "bigger" than me. I guess not, huh? I've lost at least 7 pounds in the last 2 weeks, prior to this starting, so I was heavier than him. That is like a slap in the face to me. I need to wake up and take control!!

Here we go!!!

Starting weight 1/14/11 @ 7 pm 252.6

Survived the weekend

Well I made it through the weekend. It's a good thing I work as much as I do, or I think the scale would suffer. I seem to have far less will power at home than I do at work! I guess it's boredom.

After my good weigh in on Saturday I got off work and picked up the ingredients for a healthy black bean soup for dinner, and headed home to enjoy the sunshine a little bit. I put the soup in the crockpot for supper, and headed outside. I cleaned out my nasty car, and just enjoyed the fresh air. I really should have taken a walk, but didn't. I ate the soup with my hubby before he headed for work, then headed to a friends to see their new house.

Yesterday i was home all day. I did manage to make it to town for a 45 minute cardio workout, and to the grocery store. Unfortunately, I got an unhealthy meal to make. But it was yummy and my husband loved it! We had french dips and fries. I guess when you consider used to would go back for seconds on everything on my plate, it wasn't too bad! I also took out about 50% of the inside of my bread before I made a sandwich. That had to help, right?

I also had dessert last night. When I was a teenager, my mom did some kind of weight loss program through church, and one of the recipes that she always made on that program was called "Chocolate Eclair Dessert." I always loved it! I found it by accident the other day online, so I made some. It's not THAT bad calorie wise, but I still didn't need it. It sure was yummy though! And my picky hubby even liked it! That's saying something. He hears low calorie or lite and he turns up his nose.

Today is my monthly check in at the doctor. My regular doctor has a weight loss clinic that you can see a nutrionist, weigh in monthly, etc. I've been doing this for a while now, but the past 2 times I've gone, I had gained. The nurse practioner told me that if I hadn't lost significantly this appointment (Today's) that she was going to recommend I postpone the program until i found my motivation. There was one week between the last time I went and when I started biggest loser. I'm terrified that I gained enough that week that my 9 pounds I have lost in the last 3 weeks aren't enough to make her happy.

I don't really even know why I'm that concerned to stay in the program. When we started, they gave me Phentermine and Metformin. The Metformin I take anyway because of my PCOS. The Phentermine was a great appetite suppressant at first, but literally does nothing for me now. I hardly ever take it. If I wasn't in this program, I could just start going back to my OBGYN and get back on a Metformin treatment. Maybe I should just check into that regardless of what happens with today's appointment. I just like it that they are setting the calories I need to eat a day, and the exercise calories burned. I feel like it takes the pressure off of me!

Cross your fingers for me. I don't want to be "the person" that gets kicked out of the fat doctor!!

Update:  Just got back from the doctor. From one month ago today, I have lost 8 pounds. I will probably agree with that. I "fattened up" knowing I was starting the biggest loser! Yippee!!!

Pre-Weigh In Thoughts

Well, I finally worked out last night. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical. Not as much as I had planned, but definitely had a great sweat by the end of the workout. I am either going to go back to town when my husband goes to work tonight, or do a Biggest Loser Wii workout. I need to do a "Last Chance Workout" before tomorrow's weigh in! I am really curious to see what the scale will say tomorrow. I always kind of look forward to Saturday's, but dread them at the same time. I usually feel better once we weigh though.

Wish me luck! Hopefully i won't need it though.

Need some motivation

I wish someone would just come and drag me off of my couch at night and get me moving. I work long hours this time a year (55 hours a week) and when I get home I'm ready to do nothing. The days I go work out with a friend I do that immediately after work, so that works out. But on the days when I am rushing home to see my husband for the 30 minutes I see him a night when we are both working, I have a hard time going back to the gym or turning on the Wii Fit. Last night I did absolutely nothing. I ate supper and picked up the kitchen with plans to watch Lost and then turn on Wii fit afterwards. What did I do? I started messing with the computer. I should have all of the motivation in the world, with the gut I have going on. But as much as I want to lose weight, it’s never enough.


At least I am eating well this week. I am not sucking at both aspects of my weight loss journey. My next weigh in is Saturday. My goal before then is to exercise daily. I am going to do Wii fit for 30 minutes tonight. (Biggest loser game) I am going to the gym tomorrow with my gym buddy (45 minutes of cardio) and 30 minutes of the biggest loser Wii game on Friday night. I will also be 100% on my diet plan until then. I want to see a big loss this week on the scale. I've fallen to second place in the % of weight loss for our competition, and I'm behind a girl that started at 160 pounds. That is ridiculous. I CAN DO THIS!

Monday Recap

To be a Monday yesterday, the day wasn't really to bad! I ate within my calorie ranges all day, and went to the gym. Unfortunately, I didn't stay too long. The girl that I meet on Mondays and Thursdays had been there a while when i got there and was leaving about 15 minutes after I arrived. We worked on the ellipticals for 15 minutes (The absolute max that I can do on that torture device right now) and then when she left I was going to walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes. Unforunately at 6:30 on Monday nights our gym is VERY busy. Every one of their treadmills was full and there were people waiting to get on them. So I decided I was just going to go home.

I hate this attitude that I have had lately. I want to lose weight. I am putting in the work with my diet (for the most part), but I just can't get it together with exercise. I read a post yesterday at Off the Couch where Kristina was talking about pushing past the point where you start sweating or when it starts to hurt a little. Even though I read that and completely agreed, it still wasn't something I could start doing last night. How do I get past this point?

Weigh-In Day

Well, not nearly as encouraging as last week, but a loss none the less. I am down another 1.6 pounds. I really want to lose at least 2 pounds per week, so i'm going to have to get with it this week. I know when I'm not doing well, but I always think I can get it off before Saturday. I need to think of every day as weigh in day.

My goals for this week...

Track every bite of food that hits my mouth in sparkpeople
Eat Quality calories for my caloric intake
Drink 8 glasses of water per day
Go the gym at LEAST 4 times
Bring my lunches to work so I'm not tempted to grab something in town.

Maybe by accomplishing these mini-goals I'll accomplish my ultimate goal!

Still trucking...

I haven't been posting daily like I planned, but at least I've been on track every day. I'm getting in 8 glasses of water daily, and sticking pretty closely to the 1200 calorie diet I'm working on. I went to the gym again last night, this time with my gym buddy, and burned another 400 calories. When I went to see a weight loss doctor, they told me to eat 1200 calories and burn 500, so I feel like I'm pretty close to that. I hope that the scale shows all of this hard work.

I'm reading an awesome book right now that really makes me want to start running. I've tried several times over the years to become a runner and I just can't make that transition. My shin splints start hurting and my lungs feel like they are going to explode!! I don't know whether I need to drop quite a bit of weight before I start this endeavor again, or if I just need to build up to running very far.

One day at a time!

Day 4

Day 4's update is coming a little late, but that's ok with me. I am just excited I got to day four, and am part of the way through 5!

Yesterday was a great on plan day. I was even tested at lunch. I went to a mexican restaurant, and had 4 chips, with my meal of a chicken taco and small order of beans. I usually eat half a basket of chips...with cheese dip no less... when I go. That was one of the biggest NSV's I've ever had. There has been no other diet that I've ever been on that I've had this much self control. Who would have thought a small prize I'm fighting to win would change my attitude this much.

I want to stay like this. I want eating healthy and moving more to be part of my everday life. We did end up joining the gym yesterday. It will be next week before we get our rhythym going, but I'm actually excited! I think I'm going to start by myself on Friday night, just to kind of ease myself back into the gym. Then next week on Mondays and Wednesdays we will be meeting after work for Cardio. On Tuesday and Thursdays we will be meeting there REALLY bright and early (dark and early actually) to do a few weight exercises before work. I can't believe I agreed to that. If you knew me, you certainly wouldn't believe it. I'm a sleep girl!

I am a girl with a new found motivation. I can become "formerly fat"!! I know it!

Day 2

Well I think I have made it. I am in bed, and I haven't completely sabotaged myself today. I might not have had the perfect day, food wise or exercise wise, but I did my best! I ate pretty well, limited my diet cokes(my crack) and even did wii fit tonight for a little while. It was overall a great start to my journey!

A New Day

I have been in this place so many times. The hope. The excitement of a new day. But somehow, I have to make it different this time. I can't continue on the path that I've been down for the past few years. This has to be my success story, and not just another story of failure.

Starting weight 248.8. We are doing a biggest loser competition at work, and that was my starting weight. It was one of the hardest moments of my life telling the 5 girls at work my starting weight. I outweigh the smallest contender by 110 pounds, and the next largest contender by over 50 pounds. I guess you could say that I have the most lose, and also the most to gain. Over the next 15 weeks, we are going to weigh in each Saturday morning. Here goes nothing. Actually...everything!