The future

I went to the gym again last night. This was a huge accomplishment for me, because my gym partner was sick and backed out on me. Any other time I've been attempting the "workout thing," I would have used this as a great opportunity to go home and curl up with my puppies on the couch to watch tv. But I didn't do that. I made my husband bring me my gym bag that I had forgotten and headed to the gym after work. I might have only done a 30 minute cardio workout, but that was 30 minutes that I wasn't sedentary!

I am actually starting to feel good. I attempted a little bit of jogging last night. I am attempting to get going on the Couch to 5K program, slowly but surely. I ran 3 intervals of 60 seconds last night. I quit the intervals when my shins were absolutely killing me, but I kept power walking. I expected to wake up extremely sore, but I feel great today.

I'm so ready to do this. I'm ready to be the new me. The thin me. The former fat girl. It's a foreign, but completely inspiring and exciting thought. I really can't "picture" myself at my goal weight, but I can picture myself as a healthy, happy woman. My husband and I are dying to have kids, and my weight I have no doubt is directly affecting my fertility. Is it possible that if I get this weight off I will get pregnant? Without fertility treatments? That is a question I intend to answer. And soon! We aren't getting any younger.

Wow. I didn't intend for this post to be this deep. I'm just so inspired today for some reason. Here's to tomorrow. :)

Need some motivation

I wish someone would just come and drag me off of my couch at night and get me moving. I work long hours this time a year (55 hours a week) and when I get home I'm ready to do nothing. The days I go work out with a friend I do that immediately after work, so that works out. But on the days when I am rushing home to see my husband for the 30 minutes I see him a night when we are both working, I have a hard time going back to the gym or turning on the Wii Fit. Last night I did absolutely nothing. I ate supper and picked up the kitchen with plans to watch Lost and then turn on Wii fit afterwards. What did I do? I started messing with the computer. I should have all of the motivation in the world, with the gut I have going on. But as much as I want to lose weight, it’s never enough.


At least I am eating well this week. I am not sucking at both aspects of my weight loss journey. My next weigh in is Saturday. My goal before then is to exercise daily. I am going to do Wii fit for 30 minutes tonight. (Biggest loser game) I am going to the gym tomorrow with my gym buddy (45 minutes of cardio) and 30 minutes of the biggest loser Wii game on Friday night. I will also be 100% on my diet plan until then. I want to see a big loss this week on the scale. I've fallen to second place in the % of weight loss for our competition, and I'm behind a girl that started at 160 pounds. That is ridiculous. I CAN DO THIS!